Today, despite all the drama I’ve been experiencing in the past day or so, I did my best to take care of myself.
When I woke up this morning I was feeling so much anxiety and my body’s stress response was chest tightening, sore throat, and high internal temperature. I talked to my friend about was going on and she suggested I write out what I wanted to say to Mg (my nephew’s mom) before I spoke on the phone with her. I took her advice and wrote out the things I felt I needed to say. I then got up and brushed my teeth, washed my face, and cleaned my ear plugs. I came back to the room to call Mg and we were on the phone for about a minute. Afterwards I felt a little better but still stressed. I thought about just going over my friend’s house for breakfast and then coming home to stay in bed all day but I made a different choice.
I did my self massage, took a shower, and did some yoga. I took my time and it was the best yoga session I’ve had in over 3 weeks! I felt more calm and better able to handle my day. I went over to my friend’s house to make some eggs but then I realized I wanted rice. I remembered I had a pear in my back pack so I washed it off and cut it up and when my friend saw me eating the pear she told me she was proud of me for eating something healthy. Last night we had gone to the store and I thought about buying a creme soda because I thought it would make me feel better but I’ve been working on cutting soda out. I also thought about getting a creme soda and one of those 99 cent shots of alcohol. I usually get a shot of Salted Caramel vodka or a hot of Spicy Rum to put in my root beer or creme soda but I put the soda back and decided to just make some tea when I got home.
When I got home my friend and I talked about her weekend and a bit about the family stuff I’ve been dealing with. Then we watched Hannibal and fell asleep.
Anyways, when my friend saw me eating the pear this afternoon her recognition that I was making healthy choices in the midst of this stress helped me to acknowledge that I was doing just that. It made me feel good. I went to the store and got some things to eat and went back to her place and made broccoli au gratin rice a roni. It’s what I was craving and it was super good. I also had a Vanilla Chai Latte soy protein drink. Around 430 I got home and was completely exhausted so I layed down to relax. I set my alarm to wake up to head to class but when it went off around 6:15 I was super drowsy so I turned it off and went back to sleep.
i’m sad that I missed class but I recognize that I’ve done the best I can with my day. Now that I’ve written all these blog posts tonight I am going to read a little or watch an episode of Glee before bed. I feel a need to lighten up a bit before I go to sleep for the night.