Feeling Sky and Dark Blue

I’ve in the midst of change while in the midst of stressful school work. I feel a sense of hopefulness mixed with a feeling of fear. I’m afraid I’ll not be able to get done what I need to get done in the time I have to get it done.

I’ve been writing so much in the past two weeks between my Personal Growth class my English 205 Critical Thinking and Composition class, both of which are short term 8 week courses. I’ve written on average 3000 + words a week. I’m reading and writing so much my eyes have been hurting and super tired. I’m learning what works best for me when I have loads of homework. I work best at night. I need to sleep too and the problem the week before last is that I was hardly sleeping

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trying to do homework during the day. If I work after the sun goes down for 5 or 6 hours I get loads more work done than if I try to do homework during the day.

In my English 205 class we’ve been reading and writing about bullshit and truth. To be more specific we’ve read two books by Harry G. Frankfurt, one called On Bullshit and one called http://www.amazon.com/On-Truth-Harry-G-Frankfurt/dp/030726422X/ref=pd_bxgy_b_img_y. My teacher just sent me an email about homework in response to On Truth, that said, “Very fine response to Frankfurt.” Woot!! That made me feel good. We are also reading and doing exercises out of a book called, “Style, The Basics of Clarity and Grace” by Joseph M. Williams and Gregory G. Colomb. I think this book will help me tremendously.

My Personal Growth class is going well. Last week we were studying personality and the majority of our exercises had to do with really exploring our personalities and finding out what jobs may be best for us. I took an assessment and my result: INFP. It’s interesting. I’ve taken a few tests like this before and I consistently test as an INFP. I’ve been looking around the web at what it says about INFP’s and specifically about what careers seem to attract us most. Tomorrow night’s lecture in Psychology is on Personality. My Professor last week told me that she thought I was an ENFP. The I in INFP is for introvert. The E in ENFP is extrovert. My gf thinks I’m balanced between I and E with a leaning a little more towards being an Introvert. It depends on the situation. Anyone who is in any of my classes would peg me as an extrovert because I participate, share my opinions, and ask questions. The assessment of my personality is not a for sure thing. It picks the type based on my answers and really just shows the type most fitting to me based on my over all preferences, attitudes, and behaviors.

The best thing that happened to me during the past week is that I am more hopeful about my future. I’ve chosen a major. It’ll be a Bachelor of Science degree in Psychology. My school of choice is UCSD. I’ll apply in the fall and as long as I maintain my g.p.a. I’ll do the Honors version of the degree. I’ve been thinking about what I’d major in for months and months. I woke up one morning with this in mind and felt a sense of relief. I’m happy about it. Now all I need to do is to continue going to my classes, doing my hw, and doing my best on what the classes require.